Great love...

I doubt I can make it through this blog without crying...

I went to the nursing home yesterday to visit my grandpa. He has Alzheimer's and wasn't feeling too well yesterday. I really do not like nursing homes... at all. It's hard for me to just be there. I have seriously broken down right in the middle of the building, many times. I feel bad for my grandpa. I feel bad that he has lived a long life and that this horrible disease has consumed him. He is still the same person; he still has that cute smile... but he simply just forgets. He was really frustrated yesterday because he couldn't make out a complete sentence. It was very difficult to sit here and look at a man who has been there for me basically helpless. He can't do anything on his own, but yet he has always taken care of so many others. [Ok, this is where I start crying]

[p.s. Little Debbie... One thing I love you is your passion for Older people. You are amazing.]

My grandma is great. She is so funny sometimes. She is the stereotype of an older woman, with barely anything positive to say, but she loves me... She wakes up, runs a few errands and then goes to be with my grandpa. She just sits there until he goes to supper then she goes home. She hasn't been able to sleep in a bed for quite some time now. She just falls asleep in her recliner to the sound of the tv. I can't imagine what it must be like to fall asleep alone after so many years of having my grandfather next to her. I wonder what it's like to not have your man and protector around, and the roles switched.

I'm thinking about all of this while in my grandpa's room when I walk outside...

There was a husband visiting his wife and he had just brought her back from a day at the salon. She was in a wheelchair and unable to speak. He was gently rubbing her face and every single person that walked by he would softly say, "doesn't my wife look great? isn't she glorious?"

By this point, there is no way I can keep in my tears. He completely loves her, cherishes her... and keeps her. Even when their loves can not remember, see, walk, hear.... their love remains.

This is the greatest example of great love as I could write it. I can't wait for my great love to come... but I will wait.

Advice for the day: Don't settle for just anyone, hold out for your great love.